So the kids haven't seen me all week because school was out on Monday. Today was my first day to drive and I was feeling pretty silly on this beautiful day! So I decided to give each kid a, "Whaaazzz up?" as they came on the bus. Just close your eyes for a moment and imagine me saying that 60 or so times to 60 or so different kids!!!!! It got funnier each time and the kids were LOVING it! For the most part I got about 60 or so, "Whaaazzz up?" back. Great start to a long week for me.
I had my Diet DP from Mickey D's, my Scentsy Diva shirt on, trash all over the bus (from the game last night) and a sassy attitude! "Let's get this thing started", I shouted out and off we went. Picked up all the campuses, wind blowing our hair, and up on two wheels out on to 450 headed home (not really but it sounded good)! We got about 100 feet from the school and two boys started beating up another little kid but all else seemed to be going good. I yelled. They stopped. They started again. I yelled. They stopped. This went on for a while until I got tired of yelling. They weren't ruining my day though:) I couldn't pull the bus over on I-20 so I decided to stop on the Loop instead. So I just watched as they kept on but my spirits were high.
Finally got to the Loop and I pulled over. They had no idea what was coming. I slowly got up from my seat with my Scentsy Diva self and walked to their seat, leaned over as close as I could and shouted, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING BOY?" with a drill sergeant voice. Those eyes got so wide and they sat straight up in that seat right quick. "WHY ARE YOU HITTING THAT BOY?", I shouted. "ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO PUT YOUR HANDS ON SOMEONE ELSE?" "No ma'am", they replied with fear in their voices. "THEN I BETTER NOT SEE IT HAPPEN AGAIN"! Total silence fell over the bus. I quietly turned around and walked slowly back to my seat, put my blinker on and got back on my merry way. Looked in my mirror and started a conversation with the kids behind me like nothing happened. It was great. Man that felt good. My blood pressure didn't even go up :) So great to have God on my side helping me through times like that.
Finally got all of the kids dropped off on my first two stops after having to write those two little boys up and started heading to my last stop. All the kids came to the front and I told them it seemed like forever since I had seen them. They said, "We miss you Mrs. Sutton and the other driver takes forever and pulls over anytime someone stands up". I said, "Whatever". They just went on and on about missing me and as they got off the bus, I looked up and one of the boys was waving goodbye to me! That would not be a big deal to me if it had of been a little kid but we are talking about junior high here. He has never waved at me before. So I guess maybe, they really do miss me. And maybe just maybe, I am shining a little bit of God's light. It made my day!
So I say all this to say, don't take everything so serious. Lighten up a little. Enjoy life. And do everything you do to the Glory of the Lord because He made you! He is counting on us to be those special people to brighten up someone else's day. So no matter what you are doing or have gotten yourself into, make the best of it and live this life for Him and only Him. Peace out!
He who loves purity of heart and whose speech is gracious, the king is his friend. Proverbs 22:11
Friday, October 21, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Time... Where does it go?
I hate to disappoint my loyal Bible on the Bus readers but this blog is not totally devoted to what has been going on, on bus 7 from Heaven, but more of what God has laid on my heart to talk about and deal with over the past few weeks. So I hope I don't turn you away or let you down but to maybe lift you up or meet you in the same place where I find myself today...
Time is of essence to all of us. What do we do with it? Where do we spend it? How do we spend it? And with whom do we spend it? Is it spent wisely or foolishly? Do we miss it when it's gone? What would we do with it if we could get it back? Powerful questions and with good reason. God gives us one life and we are to choose wisely how we spend it and what we do with it. He created us for one reason and that is to spread the Good News with others. Knowing all that, somehow I still choose to take the long way around or the way that is harder. Not sure why, but I do.
Since I started nursing school a few weeks ago, this thing called time, has been lost. I am not sure where it goes but it always seems to get away from me. No matter how I try to capture it, it is always just a fingertip away from my grasp. I rise with our chickens and fall asleep well after dark but that doesn't seem to matter. Time just keeps slipping away and what have I really accomplished at the end of the day? Not to much that really mattered, unfortunately.
Time is given to me each day to spend wisely. I try, I mean I REALLY try to do my very best to spend those 24 hours wisely but I fail miserably each and every day. Over the past few weeks, I have lost touch with the kids on my bus because I am only driving two afternoons. I really don't even try to get to know them. I just drive as fast as I can to get them off the bus so that I can get home and try to catch up on what I didn't get done while I was gone at school all day. I have not even changed the Bible verse on the mirror for the past several weeks. It still has Jeremiah 29:11 written on it. I have fallen down on my responsibilities at home and am relying on others to do what I should be doing. I have missed opportunity after opportunity to love on my boys that I will never get back. I have also missed so much needed time with my husband while my head was in my books studying instead. I hate to say it, but I have not even been reading my Bible each morning to start my day. Why you ask? Because I don't have time or so that is my excuse. I have filled every waking moment with studying for a career that I am not even sure that God has called me too.
So is it worth it? Is going to school really worth giving up everything else? Is it worth missing time with my husband and boys? Is it worth falling down on my responsibilities at home? Is it worth missing time with the Lord? Well, that's what everyone tells me. They say, "It's only two years, Linna"! "It will be worth it when you're done". Really? Will it? I will never get these two years of my life back, in return for a career, a very good career of taking care of others. Well, each and every day has been a struggle for me because of all of these questions and things that run through my mind. It is a struggle for me each and every day to make myself go to class and spend the time that I can never recapture. I pray that I am spending my time wisely and that I will not forsake the things that are really important. I pray that I will find a balance. I pray that God will forgive me if I have stepped outside of His will for my life...
Even as I write this, I have lost another hour. I hope that it was not in vain. I hope that someone can use it to find peace or realize how precious each minute is and to spend it with someone they love. I hope that God will use this to open my eyes to the things unseen and to remind me of the precious gifts He has already given me. I hope that He is not disappointed in me if I did step off His path and if I did, I hope that my pride won't get in the way of allowing me to do His will.
Life isn't always grand and I can't always sugar coat this blog with how great everything is. Sometimes life is tough and this is just the real me trying to deal with the cards at hand. I don't always have the right things to say or the right answers. I am just little old me trying to do the best I can with the time I have been given. Don't lose anymore of your time! Go spend it with those that matter most :)
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
Time is of essence to all of us. What do we do with it? Where do we spend it? How do we spend it? And with whom do we spend it? Is it spent wisely or foolishly? Do we miss it when it's gone? What would we do with it if we could get it back? Powerful questions and with good reason. God gives us one life and we are to choose wisely how we spend it and what we do with it. He created us for one reason and that is to spread the Good News with others. Knowing all that, somehow I still choose to take the long way around or the way that is harder. Not sure why, but I do.
Since I started nursing school a few weeks ago, this thing called time, has been lost. I am not sure where it goes but it always seems to get away from me. No matter how I try to capture it, it is always just a fingertip away from my grasp. I rise with our chickens and fall asleep well after dark but that doesn't seem to matter. Time just keeps slipping away and what have I really accomplished at the end of the day? Not to much that really mattered, unfortunately.
Time is given to me each day to spend wisely. I try, I mean I REALLY try to do my very best to spend those 24 hours wisely but I fail miserably each and every day. Over the past few weeks, I have lost touch with the kids on my bus because I am only driving two afternoons. I really don't even try to get to know them. I just drive as fast as I can to get them off the bus so that I can get home and try to catch up on what I didn't get done while I was gone at school all day. I have not even changed the Bible verse on the mirror for the past several weeks. It still has Jeremiah 29:11 written on it. I have fallen down on my responsibilities at home and am relying on others to do what I should be doing. I have missed opportunity after opportunity to love on my boys that I will never get back. I have also missed so much needed time with my husband while my head was in my books studying instead. I hate to say it, but I have not even been reading my Bible each morning to start my day. Why you ask? Because I don't have time or so that is my excuse. I have filled every waking moment with studying for a career that I am not even sure that God has called me too.
So is it worth it? Is going to school really worth giving up everything else? Is it worth missing time with my husband and boys? Is it worth falling down on my responsibilities at home? Is it worth missing time with the Lord? Well, that's what everyone tells me. They say, "It's only two years, Linna"! "It will be worth it when you're done". Really? Will it? I will never get these two years of my life back, in return for a career, a very good career of taking care of others. Well, each and every day has been a struggle for me because of all of these questions and things that run through my mind. It is a struggle for me each and every day to make myself go to class and spend the time that I can never recapture. I pray that I am spending my time wisely and that I will not forsake the things that are really important. I pray that I will find a balance. I pray that God will forgive me if I have stepped outside of His will for my life...
Even as I write this, I have lost another hour. I hope that it was not in vain. I hope that someone can use it to find peace or realize how precious each minute is and to spend it with someone they love. I hope that God will use this to open my eyes to the things unseen and to remind me of the precious gifts He has already given me. I hope that He is not disappointed in me if I did step off His path and if I did, I hope that my pride won't get in the way of allowing me to do His will.
Life isn't always grand and I can't always sugar coat this blog with how great everything is. Sometimes life is tough and this is just the real me trying to deal with the cards at hand. I don't always have the right things to say or the right answers. I am just little old me trying to do the best I can with the time I have been given. Don't lose anymore of your time! Go spend it with those that matter most :)
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
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